Saturday, April 24, 2010

Taking the Plunge

So I did it...I officially resigned yesterday, effective June 5, 2010. I will be a SAHM starting then! I am excited beyond belief, I finally get to do what I have always wanted. I am also scared beyond belief...finances will be very tight, but everyone I have talked to said it was the same with them and they wouldn't change it for the world. Chris is extremely positive about it and is constantly having to reassure me that we are doing the right thing. He is so much better at having faith than me. I have faith in him that he will do whatever he has to do to keep us afloat, but I hate that he will have to work ALL THE TIME to make this happen for us. But he is willing to make the sacrifice for our family and I love and appreciate him so much for that. I am so lucky to have such a hard-working husband who only wants the best for his family no matter what he has to do.

Of course, I will be working part-time to help out hopefully. I would love to work at a MDO so Logan can go--I really want to get him into a "school-like" environment. I don't think he is one of those kids that would do well at home all day, he needs the socialization and the "rules" that a classroom would provide. I don't think he would do well at all if Kindergarten was his first experience with that. His sitter has been wonderful--she has had him since he was 5 months old--but it's time to move on. We still plan on meeting up with them for outings next year. I would also be open to watching 1 or 2 kids full or part time. If I do it full time, then I would still put Logan in a MDO 2 days a week and I would just stay home. I don't want to watch a lot of kids because I still want to be able to go places with Logan. If he has a program at school, I want to be able to go see it, which I wouldn't be able to do with a lot of kids. But nothing is for sure yet, except the not going back to work thing (scary).

In other news, I found out I have PCOS on Thursday, which explains everything that has been going on with my body since the age of 12. I am a little frustrated that no other doctor has ever caught this since I've apparently had it my whole life, but I guess that's what specialists are for. So I'm on new meds (Clomid--watch out everyone) and having a procedure done Thursday to look for blocked tubes and then we'll see what happens. Everything has kind of fallen into place this month, so maybe this will be it!